Saturday, May 29, 2010

stop being random .

swingging mood ~

no exact point .

just started .

shall i ?

looking deep into it. im tired. tired to be a victim of feeling's resentment .

sometimes its nice to be CRUEL .
but its GOOD to be nice .

i miss those moments .
why should diz happened to me ?

i hve tried too much .
but im still lose .
me ! me is a loser .
but i try to steady as well as what FARID said.

i've do somethings .
stupid ~!
forgives me .

i knew it.
but ~
i need a spirit to walk to the next chap .
i've no ones to talk to .
only YOU .

please gives me FIGHTER SPIRIT to walk this world .
to complete my mission .

atas namaMU ,
kmi berserah kepadamu.

kami hambaMu yg byk berdosa,
tidak layak untuk syurgaMU.
namun , tidak jugak kami sanggup untuk nerakaMU .


sekali aku rebah , sejuta kali aku bangun " , ramlee ag. murshid .

gaa. stop being random .

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

berat hati berat perasaan

ASSALAMUALAIKUM.

hurm. malam sudah tiba. baru abis tuition, truz ngadap laptop teringin nak catat something. tadi blajar chapter 3 - electromagnetism. blajar mcm nak electromagnt dlm RING BELL, RELAY , n CIRCUIT BREAKER. well, its fun n fine. wlupun bikin confuse tp adorable la org bilang. i should give credit to my sir .

next, aku lebih suka crita pasal beban. maw kata beban nda juga. ia lebih pada tanggungjawab, though. hurm. susah maw ckp. aku rasa aku menggalas satu harapan ramai tuk CEMERLANG for diz SPM due to 1peristiwa yg menimpa yg takyah aku ckp kat cne la kan. hurm. berat sgt. aku x sanggup hancuss kan perasaan smua org yg aku syg, kalo ak x struggle dlm prjalann aku kali ini. tpi, aku pun insan biasa, tau penat, tau maw main . tpi bila ak bt smua tuh, hati selalu berkata, "mi, pi blajar, igt DORG yg bg harpn ma ko ". haishh. susah tul taw. nda taw maw hndle ni benda mcm mana.

ok, aku maw crita psl 1crita ni , crita cigu.zack. dya jumpa bapak aku hari tuh. then, bapak aku ckp ng dya mcm2. i mean, mcm aku hrpn dya, mcm2 la, spm aku mesti cemerlang bukan besak2 jak. SO cigu zack bawak crita ni pi class. apa lg.

1: malu la bha. kena kc dgr kawan2. nasib kwan2 tyme tuh byk bt dek ja. haha. 2:: sedih. takut benda tuh x jadi keyataan.

kadang2 aku bingung, mcm na ni . mcm na tu. aku ambik 11 subjek. 4 subjek yg perlu studi smart giler > fizik <> chemistry BATING< . dlm pada 2, xleh kc lupa sejarah. PSI, PQS n so on. maw atur masa pun aku pening. so, aku start pelan2. walaupun !! bertburan bha jadual. hahaha :) so for, chem OK la jg. fizik : getting better, but chapter LIGHT N WAVES do make me confuse. BIO :: so far so gud but have to remember lots of things . sigh. ADDMATH : my first target ! to get A . hurm. sedang berusaha la.

n yg lain, dah mula sudah cket2. wish me luck je la. aku pun mcm as, takut hadapi smua ni. TPI aku igt jak pesan USTAZA. HAFIZAN ( ijan my cuzzy ) , kita blajar bukan tuk exam, blajar tuk idup. ikhlas tuntut ilmu.

kekadang jatuh juga air mata emas ni. emas kew ? emas la. haha. jatuh sebab namaw ada hati yg sakit bulan 3 tahun depan. harap apa yg aku usaha ni, apa yang aku doa ni termakbul;. haish. tngah menaip ni pun, hormon adrenalin aku mcm bertindak suda . haha. tersentuh prasaan. hee. besar sungguh tanggungjwb. lain lg kos byr aku tuition. bukan 1 pusat tuition jak aku ikut , sampai private tuition pun di ikut sua ni. buku2 lagi. hurm.

kadang2 ak rasa kita ni patut stop complaining about this or that.
so, before i start komplen2 lagi. aku stop la dulu. hurm. :)
ok la for diz entri , salam !

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